Monday, October 26, 2015

Thing I learnt in UK

I did not get chosen to become the committee member in the Malaysian Society..

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Okay. Let's talk back to the yesterday interview. The interview is at one the library study room, the appointment time is 3.00p.m. I started finding the room from 2.45p.m. but I can't find it. I went to ask the librarian here. He brought me to the room. I saw the president, vice president and the Welfare Director waiting for me. And yes. I applied the for the position of the Welfare assistance director. So the interview started. The Welfare Director (let's call him A), asked me why I want to be in that position. Think about A.. Just make me feel so weak. I used to ask him to help me get someone he knows who's working in UK and he said he know there's someone can help. Since I need to get a guarantor for me to get the 3 instalments for my new accommodation. I gave him a due date. He saw and only replied to my message the day after the due date. The most annoying part is that he said he can't find it. SAY WHAAAAT?! So why not you told me at before it? The due date I gave him is like 1 week. Gosh. The so-called "Welfare Director". My dad now has to pay the whole accommodation fees without any instalment. I just feel so guilty. I have no one to help in Liverpool, I thought the "Welfare Director" will able to help me. The fact is NO. Sometimes you just better to rely on yourself.

I told him the reason I want to be in this position is to help people like me who came to Liverpool and felt helpless and I just thinking back how helpless I felt when I came to Liverpool. I thought A would help me too.. Then my tears fall without realising. The committee shocked. I was shocked too! Everything happened after that was so blur to me.

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After I receiveing the email that staying I didn't get the position, I didn't really feel unhappy. I just feel like screw these kind of people. Too much shit things happened on me. You just don't have to give a damn to them.

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Jane: Queeny, since when you become so sassy?

Hah!

Monday, September 28, 2015

It's My Problem

I just.. Uhh.. I've no idea why I got no confidence in socialising with people ever since in college. I just became more passive.
I hope I can get back to the old me who don't care and think too much..

Friday, September 25, 2015

Second Day in Liverpool, UK

Yea yea. It's the second day I reached Liverpool. I just feel so helpless and lost since there is no other friends my college joining me. I can't my the WiFi signal in my room. When I got in to one of my friend's room in another hall. I connected his room WiFi. Martyn replied on my Whatsapp about how to activate a UK Sim-card. In case I can't understand it, he called me. I feel like crying after listening to his voice. My Malaysia's friends. I miss them. All of them, out of sudden! I keep telling myself I've to control myself. When I went back to my room, I just broke down and tears falling down..

After I calmed myself, I activated my Sim-card and on the data, I saw Zac finding me and we planned to meet each other in the campus. He helped me a lot. On the way to the Law School, we met Eugene. Yea. They talked to me. I feel so grateful to meet them.

Monday, September 21, 2015

First day in Liverpool, UK

Oh ya! I think there will be a lot of time for me to update my blog. Since the there is no WiFi in my hostel but only internet cable. Probably.. Oh not probably is definitely hard to communicate with my friends in Malaysia.
What? Why??

Since I have not update my blog during the past 1 year. I passed my A-Level Express Route with 2E. Yes. Just passed.

Then I continue my degree in BAC. I realised I wanted to leave my country so badly. The same old routine repeat every weekday: Woke up > have breakfast go to college> finished class > lunch > sleep> dinner> sleep. So I took the 1+2 programme.

I am procrastinator (now still the same). I even watch drama during the exam period. So yea, I got only 4B in law first year degree. Too bad I cannot meet the requirement in Cardiff University, my firm choice. I have to go for my insurance choice which is the University of Liverpool. At first, I am not sure about whether should I go for the second year in Liverpool or only go to there when I am in the third year. I called my dad, he told me if I wanted to go UK on this year, I can. I almost crying out because it costs my parents a lot of money since I have to study two years in UK. But I was so selfish and said I will go for two years then..

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The day I was going to fly to UK. My friends came to send me off. I am so appreciate their effort coming all the way to say goodbye to me. Before I went in to the immigration gate, everyone just waving and saying goodbye to me. Damn! This is the time I almost cry! Yes, ALMOST. I went into the immigration hall, I felt so lonely.. No, I have to be strong and independent. So here come my 15 hours journey flight!

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I was so thirsty after I reached the Manchester Airport and there was a big sister from China, (I would like to call her "da jie jie") she just being so sweet and kind for giving out her only water left in her bottle to me. Thank you so much!

Before we got in to the Liverpool bus to go to our own accommodation, I met Zac and Eugene who are also from BAC! Unfortunately they are going to study for their final year. We talk everything about BAC! Without realisation, the bus reached my accommodation. I was like wth. Mine is the off campus accommodation (30mins away from school campus) and everyone else is staying nearby the school campus.

I got in the accommodation hall and lucky to happen there was a daughter and her parents will going to the hall, they helped me to take my luggage (you have no idea how heavy are my luggage). Thanks for helping!

I met my new housemate. She's a nice girl. I talked to her for some time then I went out to Tesco to get some stuff in my room. Wow! There's WiFi in Tesco! Fabulous! Then I can't find the cloth hanger in Tesco. Then people the around there are all so willing to help me The worker there found out their cloth hanger is out of stock he even use google maps to find the place which sell cloth hanger for me! When I on the way back to my accommodation, there are people asking me where is the Tesco, then I showed them the way. I feel like I'm living here for quite sometimes. lol. When I went back, I saw other of my roommate. We have dinner and went for Bar for a drink.

Before we went to our house, we saw our seniors were all drunk. But most of them are studying for medicine! Damn.. This is why I'm impressed with the people here. They can study hard and play hard! Not like the Chinese.